As it was, as it will be

I've been avoiding writing here for a number of reasons. Lack of time, other mediums, those sort of reasons. The main one, though, is that I don't want to come back here in two years, five years, however many years from now and have to read about how my life was doing right now.

( Because right now, life sucks )

I don't want to pour all the feelings I'm dealing  out into the internet where I'll have to face them again in the future and I don't seem to be able to craft anything that doesn't roll back around to the fact that my brother has cancer.  So I'm  going to continue avoiding the problem for now and just be an observer.