Beanie Baby Chronicles - Continued
Aug. 15th, 2018 08:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
joflasher Since May, I've been pushing this envelope a little more every week. Two weeks ago, I rode the Beanie Baby off the property at the Groton Fair Grounds, the first time in over a year since she's been ridden somewhere new. The original plan was to throw my trainer on her first but I got there early & lunged her and by the time my trainer showed up, I was like "f*ck it, she's being great, I'm just getting on and riding". And I did. And she was a rock star.
Of course, a week later we spent 40 minutes spooking at her own reflection in the mirrors but the good rides out number the bad and I'm not scared shitless of picking a battle or two.
The vet has finally given us a completely clear, no caveats, clean bill of health and we're starting to really train again. I've stopped needing my trainer to be there ever time I throw a leg over her and the plan is to show her at a couple schooling shows and possibly the last recognized show of the season. And today, despite dealing with epic anxiety due to my impending visit home*, I hopped on, we worked for 40 minutes and then we went for a jaunt around the property where we spooked at a puppy, a bird, a bunny and a stick and it was all okay. We are making progress.
* I apparently can't deal with the thought of going home to PA since my brother's death. The first year, I spent 2 weeks having anxiety attacks and cleaning everything that would hold still. Last year, I scrubbed all the walls in the house and cried randomly. This year, I'm wired and painting like a fiend and NOT "relax your hips, don't hold tension in your elbows, what IS going on with your spine" style of dressage riding. But it will be fine.
Of course, a week later we spent 40 minutes spooking at her own reflection in the mirrors but the good rides out number the bad and I'm not scared shitless of picking a battle or two.
The vet has finally given us a completely clear, no caveats, clean bill of health and we're starting to really train again. I've stopped needing my trainer to be there ever time I throw a leg over her and the plan is to show her at a couple schooling shows and possibly the last recognized show of the season. And today, despite dealing with epic anxiety due to my impending visit home*, I hopped on, we worked for 40 minutes and then we went for a jaunt around the property where we spooked at a puppy, a bird, a bunny and a stick and it was all okay. We are making progress.
* I apparently can't deal with the thought of going home to PA since my brother's death. The first year, I spent 2 weeks having anxiety attacks and cleaning everything that would hold still. Last year, I scrubbed all the walls in the house and cried randomly. This year, I'm wired and painting like a fiend and NOT "relax your hips, don't hold tension in your elbows, what IS going on with your spine" style of dressage riding. But it will be fine.
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Date: 2018-08-16 12:42 am (UTC)